Thursday, October 21, 2010

Broken Glass


Desire is a funny thing. It stirs up the senses, creating a thirst for everything pleasurable about life. Passion is the dessert of life, meant to be savored and enjoyed. A life without passion is like walking in the dessert for years, feeling tired, thirsty and hungry. Life feels dull and plain without passion or desire. Desire is the pulsating drive to feel and savor passion. Someone made a comment on the article I wrote about passion: "Anonymous said...Passion is just one component. Passion with Desire leaves a person motionless." I reflected on that thought for a bit and realized that anonymous may be right. Most people rarely feel passion let alone desire and passion rolled into one. In fact, passion without desire often feels less emotional and even possibly shallow. Desire is a profound sense of longing or hoping for something or someone. Many people stay bogged down in desire too afraid to take even one step toward ever getting what they want. They just allow themselves to desire something or someone from afar, telling themselves that it would be a pipe dream to ever actually attain what they desire. Those people live in caves and they die inside at some point and then literally die with lost dreams and hidden desires that were never allowed to blossom in the light of day. Others may actually allow themselves to desire something or someone but when they get close to getting what they want they shut down, run away, push it away or sabotage. Desire and passion together is pretty overwhelming! It takes awhile to literally get adjusted and use to the intensity of that type of energy. Staying motionless for too long is futile however. Let me rephrase and say that being motionless for awhile may be needed to process all that you are feeling, therefore hopefully helping you to gear up to reach out for what you desire. You have to value yourself enough to push through any old fears, doubts and defenses to allow yourself to embrace the passion from attaining that which you so desired. Being motionless by passion and desire is like sitting in a house surrounded by glass walls. You can see what you desire on the other side of the glass. It's clearly visible and within reach. The answer becomes, do you stay in your glass structure, almost tortured by being motionless...or do you you break the glass once and for all and wrap your arms around passion. At least in a glass structure you are ahead of those living in caves but you are still walling yourself off from the opportunity of having passion in your life. I admit, passion and desire are scary things, in a good way. Again, many do not even allow themselves to dream...partly because they are afraid they won't get what they want but many don't consciously realize that they are really afraid of getting what they want. You have to face those issues of unworthiness once and for all to embrace getting what you desire. Many people feel a profound sense of insecurity, guilt and unworthiness, so they don't feel they ultimately deserve a passion filled life. The alternative is living in your glass house, too mired down by fears to break free. I see this issue play out all around me in various situations. People pick jobs, dates and relationships based on what's convenient versus what may be a challenge or more in line with desire. People play it safe all the time and take the easy, yet unfulfilling way out. The more daring ones reach out for their desires only to pull back and remain motionless. The true daredevils are afraid too....but they take their hammer and break the glass. If the glass house gets rebuilt thanks to defenses, they just break the glass again and again until the house falls away completely and the person is finally free. It may take a few if not many times to shatter the glass but passion and desire are worth it. So, to "Anonymous," don't stay motionless endlessly...break the glass and allow yourself to embrace passion and desire in your life. “A strong passion for any object will ensure success, for the desire of the end will point out the means”...(William Hazlitt).

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